Simplicity.

Wednesday, August 13

Hello humans ! (: Today was fine , because mr soh din come . Humans , Pls bear with mye fer a few minutes because i think im currently under a emotional break down , not in anything but with my one & only God . Dun ask why , because im not saying and i dun wan any Christian tu think the wrong way , and of cause i dun wan them tu blackside God in any way .well , apparently im a happy girl in everyone's eyes , dun eu guys think so ? but humans pls try not tu believe in yeur beautiful eyes tells eu , because it might turn out wrongly with what eu eyes tells eu . I hate my family , because everyone here is cold-blooded , fer example my mum , she dump mye at home and she told mye , :" Girl , pls go and find food yeurself , im gng tu support yeur sis fer today's competition . " and the most importantly is she din give mye money & any single cents infact , so how am i gona eat ? and my house has nothing nice , or infact nothing tu eat . so mummy , even how much eu dun bother abt mye or care abt mye , i have nothing tu say because i knw myself im unless in yeur eyes and i knw eu have alrdy given up on mye , however eu brought mye into this world , and made mye in a combined of yeur egg & daddy's sperm . I wont HATE eu , and another of the example is my dad , i called him up today and tell him there's no food at home and mummy & sis is not home , so he told mye : " girl , im sorry im currently drinking in the pub and i seriously cant buy eu any food now , sorry bye . " and of cause i wont HATE eu too , because without eu i wont be here blogging , but however even how much i will not hate eu , i will always remember how my childhood & teenage life is , TERRIBLE . I wont follow yeur foot paths next tyme , men & women because this is a good lesson fer mye . I wont wanna bring my kids up like how eu have brought mye up , because i understand how it seriously feels but eu dun , and i knw eu will nvr nvr understands :'(

No one has the right tu condemn mye on how could i repair my heart ,

cause no one knows how much im hurting deep inside my heart .

sometimes i dun quite seriously understand why am i still alive over here ,

But this depression is getting harder and harder to survive.

What can I do to get out , out of this dark hole ?

To escape this sweet depression is my only goal fer nw .

Bye humans (:

I am worn out from groaning ; all night long I flood my bed with weeping and drench my couch with tears .

Psalm 6 : 6

God this is how im feeling now , i prayed with tears everydat , thinking that You will let mercy fall down on mye , wanting tu praise You more & more , but now i some how losing faith in christ .

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